You just loved the fact that I was here for you.
You loved the attention I gave you,
You loved the fact that I would drop anything for you.
You did not love me, but god,
I loved you.
It hurts to know, it really fucking hurts to know how much I love you. I ache inside, everything is you. You’re etched in me- forever embedded. I wouldn’t be able to let you out even if I wanted to. It’s scary all this love I have for you- terrifying because I know I’d drop everything for you. I don’t know why you have me like this. You’re addictive- I crave you. You’re my daily dose of life- if I don’t get you I shatter. That’s why I have to hear your voice, that’s why I have to talk to you in every which way- why I want to see you everyday. I break when I’m not with you and I hate it. Why do you have this control over me? You have me whole- sometimes I want me back… but I wonder if that means losing you? If so, you can have me-I don’t know what life would be like if I wasn’t with you. I don’t want to walk away from you but it hurts and I’m scared. Is that what love is suppose to be like? I don’t like it but I do love you, make it stop…?
(I hate to love you so hard but god do I love you so much it hurts.)